When Life gives you lemons, Ya make limonade

I went for a long walk to clear my mind. I came uo with a couple of rules to live by:

1- I need to get healthy- »For me this means working out everyday, taking a walk every day to clear my mind or mourn, I want and need to loose 30 pounds. It will be become my new goal, my reason of being.

2- I need to do one nice thing a day for me. For only me. I need to learn to focus on myself and my needs. I think somewhere along the line I forgot about me and only though in terms of us. To me, this mean taking a bath, doing my nails, inviting the girls over, trying out a new recipe. To do something every day, no matter how minute, just to make me happy.

3- I need to do something a week that gets me out of my comfort zone. Something exciting, something adventurous, something that will make me feel like I am alive.I`m not sure exactly what this might be. It could be something simple like trying a new resturant or going to a movie alone. One thing that I am planning on doing is my certification to become an aeorbic instructor. Class would start in February.

4- I need to accept my anxiety and no longer let it rule or interfer with my life. I need to tell myself that I will never get better if I do not push myself. I have an anxiety disorder that I have been dealing with for over 10 years. I am much better than I used to be but I still feel like I am not myself. The person I want to be has been lost. I want to try and find her. She is a great person!She deserves to be happy.

Finally, I need to hold myself accountable for these rules. No slacking!!