You quietly disappear..

I'm checking off goals career wise off my list. I've never been so fulfilled as I am now career wise. I'm enthralled. I'm engaged. I'm emmerced. But I'm so alone. 

I'm not sure why I have to learn everything alone. Im not sure why my life exists without a partner. I know I needed to discover me but I'm getting to a point where I wonder how under-desirable I am. At work everyone has a mate. Everyone has kids. People said you would meet people in your new work place. They are all married. I'm embarrassed by my life. I'm single and no wants to get to know me for me. You never announce that. You quietly disappear. 

A person I will forget..,

Cathartic is the word of the day as I actually realize as my friend goes though a post we never should have continued after we break up heart break up that I do not give a shit about my ex. It snuck up upon me. I always thought I need that closure to say my piece. I really do not care. Wow. Is all I have to say. No idea why? I just do not care anymore to actually have that talk that was so important. I guess I'm finally okay. It's weird. I dwell on being alone. I hate that I am but for some odd reason I really do not give a fucking rat's ass about him. He  is really nothing to me. A person I knew. A person I will forget.