Life is a solo game. Get used to it.

Ughhh.... Friends with kids. Friends who are tired. Friends with boys. Friends who make plans but ditch. Friends who are crazy. Friends who are preoccupied. Friends who are never around. 

Women make the best but worst friends. When life changes so do they. I changed to accommodate my friends. I made new friends. Everyone is all about themselves. I get so tired trying. 

I'm single. I should have friends right now. I do not. For the most part. They all have their own lives. I'm so tired of trying. 

Boy as friends. Honestly just want to get in your pants. They are never really friends. Once and awhile they are. 

Really I'm so tired of being alone. I never knew that life was such a solo game but it is. I never knew why I thought it was not. I should be used to it by now. 

Oblivious

Can I really be that be oblivious to my sister who says she is anxious and nervous. I want to help her but she closes up. I try. I do not need another to feel like I do.  I need to reach out in a way that she can hear me. I never want a single person to ever experience what I do. It's torturous. No one should ever feel like I do. And the thought that my sister has any anxiety hurts me.  I never want anyone to live what I do.