Really are you just a vag???

Its reallly funny how you make mistakes who never call but then they do. What do they really think? You would drop everything caused they texted. Never ever gonna happen. It was a mistake. I tried really hard to forget about it. 

You go on a date. He tells you he has three fuck friends. You say not gonna be a forth and the date ends early. Lovely 

Your male besty just kinda tells you there is sexual tension between you guys he should come over. It's not what you want. You need the friend more. 

You actually have a friend with benefits but he's not answering. Cause he is such a complicated one. He would be the only one you would ever consider. Just because you are past all this shit and really are more than a vag!!

I want to play.

I've prayed to God for many things over the years. I have a coworker that believes that you should always leave your faith enirely in his power. He will see you through into the right path. 

I perhaps am someone in the middle and then some what sqewed in my views on that subject manner. 

I know that I have prayed, demanded gods help in this last year. Some things have been answered. Like Pepe being found.  Many things have not been answered. I am left questioning and sceptical.  

I guess I am asking the universe right now, God to just give me a bit of luck right now. A bit of pleasure. I know exactly what I want and who I want to explore alittle bit of fun with. I need it. I desire it.  I want to just stop for a bit and explore life. I can not always just push forward. I want to simply exist. I know who I want to exist with. Even if it is for just a moment in time. 

I want to play.