I want to play.

I've prayed to God for many things over the years. I have a coworker that believes that you should always leave your faith enirely in his power. He will see you through into the right path. 

I perhaps am someone in the middle and then some what sqewed in my views on that subject manner. 

I know that I have prayed, demanded gods help in this last year. Some things have been answered. Like Pepe being found.  Many things have not been answered. I am left questioning and sceptical.  

I guess I am asking the universe right now, God to just give me a bit of luck right now. A bit of pleasure. I know exactly what I want and who I want to explore alittle bit of fun with. I need it. I desire it.  I want to just stop for a bit and explore life. I can not always just push forward. I want to simply exist. I know who I want to exist with. Even if it is for just a moment in time. 

I want to play.