You quietly disappear..

I'm checking off goals career wise off my list. I've never been so fulfilled as I am now career wise. I'm enthralled. I'm engaged. I'm emmerced. But I'm so alone. 

I'm not sure why I have to learn everything alone. Im not sure why my life exists without a partner. I know I needed to discover me but I'm getting to a point where I wonder how under-desirable I am. At work everyone has a mate. Everyone has kids. People said you would meet people in your new work place. They are all married. I'm embarrassed by my life. I'm single and no wants to get to know me for me. You never announce that. You quietly disappear.