The Absolute

You are so absolute. Once you make a decision there is no changing your mind. You look at our relationship as one big mess. You want to look at at and dissect it. I have been, I will.

I know that looking back that you changed towards me. You were always easily annoyed by me, you did not seem to care what was going on in my life, if my view points did not agree with yours you often would claim that we are complete opposites. You seemed to relish in the fact that we were opposites. It gave your arguments against us power. You would tell me that people would look at us and wonder why. I know now that that was you reflecting. You always picked on me, my choices, my friends, my lifestyle. Everything about me annoyed you. You always judged me harsher than others, you never looked at me like I was special, you never went out of your way to make me feel good about myself. You took every opportunity to break me down. You never wanted to do things with me anymore but claimed that we were boring. I suggested countless activities but you never felt like it.

I remember in Costa Rica, we had spent the night in the car (I did that to make you happy) and in the morning, I had to go to the bathroom and it annoyed you. You said I was a baby. When we drove back from Niagara falls after your race, where you had to mentioned that I was not there to meet you at the finish line (Even though I took an amazing picture of you running to the finish line), you got mad at me cause I was scared to drive in the pitch black. When we painted the house, you told me that I could not paint because I always had to control thing. It had to my way. I just wanted to be a part of the whole process.

You never tell me I am beautiful, you never look at me like I am the most amazing being on earth. You seem to always be embarrassed that I am your girlfriend. You never once posted a picture of me on FB or Twitter.

I'm mad now cause I know I failed you in the past but I never treated you like a piece of shit.

Our relationship has been the shit.