Why am I me?

Why is this hard? Why am I not strong enough? Why can't I get myself off the couch? Why do I miss you so much? Why is it that all I want to do is call you? Why can't I just tell you to fuck off? Why am I so agitated? Why did I just call you? Why is this happening to me? What did I ever do to deserve this? Why do I still love you? Why was I not good enough for you? Why am I destroying myself? Why do I miss you so much? Why is the idea of not talking to you for 6 months killing me? why am I me?