I have been asked this question so many times over the last several days; Will I ever take him back if he asked. Weeks ago, the answer would have been YES. Last week it would have been YES, if he can show me that he wants me and only me. That he would be satisfied with our life, that he would want to build a life together. Now, so much has been said and unsaid. So many truths have been shared. So many lies have been discovered. My answer now is: I am not sure. I do not trust him. I do not trust him with my heart. I do not think he will ever be satisfied and I deserve more. He hurt me in a way that no one ever could. He betrayed our life, our relationship, our future. He betrayed me in the cruelest of ways possible. He is leaving me with all the pieces to pick up while he runs and plays. Could I ever forgive him for all this hurt. The answer is simply: I do not know. I know I love him but I do not like him right now. I know I miss him but am angry with him.
I need the strength to get through this. I feel like I am going a bit crazy.
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