Reality is not a dream

'A dream you dream alone is just a dream. A dream you dream together is a reality' John Lennon

My reality is that he is going off to India to be with another girl. My reality is that I am selling my share of the house. My reality is that he no longer loves me and only wants to be my friend. My reality sucks. I do not share a dream with anyone. He does.

I have to stop being so understanding. I have to stop being so accepting. I have to live in reality and not in some dream world that I created all on my own. My dreams no longer exist. I have to create new ones that do not include him.

When he is gone to India. We can no longer speak. Foster a dream that no longer exists. I need to do that for my sanity. If I talk to him, my sanity is at risk. I'll be in a dream world shared only by me.

Dreams are precious, I can not let him control mine.