I lost it last night. The anger boiled up inside me and spewed out all over Robert. All the repressed anger I had about him, the girl, his ability to give up on me on us so easily.
He told me he is done. Our relationship has run it's course. There is no hope for us. The conversation turned ugly. He insulted me, blamed me and made me feel like it was all my fault. I was not present enough, I had too much self pity, I never achieved my goals. He said he always carried me but I was not there for him. I failed him.
I was there for him he just never saw me. He always thought I did not understand, I could not offer him solace.
Too much was said last night to be unsaid. I fear that too much was said that we can not spend his last few days together. There is too much hurt, too much anger and too much pain.
He no longer loves me. The distance between us has can no longer be mended. We have become two strangers.
It kills me. I just lost my best friend.
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