You have days where u feel like yourself for hours at a time. You laugh, joke with friends, work hard but then the night settles in and you are all alone trying to fill up the lonely hours. That is when the tears start and they don't seem to want to stop.
You talk to friends. They are too busy for you. They have kids to run after. You try your mother and she has your dad to take care of. And she is fed up of listening to you. You try your dating site. All is empty. You are trying to desperately to fill the hours before you go to bed
You want to connect with anyone cause the person you really want to connect with is not here.
You move on with your life. Make appointments to see condos you are not interested in seeing, text random guys that are too young for you. Plan to run races with paint thrown at you. All in an attempt to fill a void that only one person can fill.
You are trying desperately to fake it until you make it.
I think everyone can see right through me.
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