Lost, confused and unsure.

I should hate you. I should be so mad at you. I should not be accepting and understanding, Amy anymore.

You lied to me. You cheated on me. You made a fool out of me. You betrayed our love and our small family. You ruined our future. You probably ruined any grain of trust that I could ever have in you.

I started looking at condos yesterday. I almost had a panic attack when I walked into the first place. I felt like I was outside my own body.

I have never felt so alone in my whole life. I have never felt so un-motivated in my whole life. I have never felt as unsure about me and my future as I do right now.

I do not know who I am anymore. Everything is changing around me and I feel like I have nothing to hold on too. I feel like I am loosing my grip.

I am so lost.