I wonder if he blew out a candle for me?

Tomorrow is my birthday. I have this unsettling feeling that something is missing.

My day is jammed packed with hair cuts, pedicures, late lunch, late dinners and obviously drinking. I wanted it that way. I needed it to be that way so that I do not have a moment to think.

It's the day before my birthday I will definitely cry if I want too. At midnight I will be 34 years old. I have never spent a birthday without him. This day is making me depressed.

I doubt that he will even think about me for a second. It's already my birthday in India. I wonder if he blew out a candle for me? And made a wish.