Me focussed. Is that so bad??

Ever been so fed up? I made a promise to myself that this year would be about me in whatever shape that took. 

I just had a friend ask me why it seems that I avoid her invites. Funny thing is.. I texted her back and she never answered? Why cause she is busy with her life. Why is that okay?  Cause she has a family and kids?

I have always been the person that gives up everything for a person I love. Now I realize that I can no longer be that person. My life is all about me. That includes my friends. They had kids. I accommodate them. Fit their lives into mine. Everything changed for them and cause I loved them and wanted them in my life I chose to mold around them. 

I can not be that person anymore. I love them. Adore their kids. But I have me to think about me. So I can become me. They already found themselves. They should allow me to discover myself. 

Here is my text:

You lay something on me. Have me have to deal with all the thoughts. Rather than talk to me. 

Then you do not answer my text. Why cause your busy with your life? Why is that okay but when I'm busy or lazy cause I want to be I get asked why I'm not around. I've always understood you have a family. You have commitments. You cancel or are busy, kids are sick or, you want to be with your family. I never say a thing. I just understand and now when I'm trying to focus on me I get questioned. Honestly as a friend I think that is not fair.  I have always made time for you. I have always made knowing your kids important to me. 

I honestly just want to be me focussed.is that so bad?