I have this innate desire to be wanted. To be be need. To be love. To feel like I matter in someone life. I get why people commit suicide on this day or the next. Their is a desire as humans to be wanted and when you do not the whole world turns upside down.
I'm not there. Trust me. But I get it. Watching. Feeling. Seeing. The love around you hurts. You wonder why you deserve to be alone. What did you ever deserve for this life lesson. It is a life lesson. You know it is. One you never deserved but one you needed to become the person you never thought you could be.
Hurt will make you stronger. It will make you a better you. One that is confident. One that can survive Christmas and relax and realize that this year Santa forgot all your presents. It is okay. Go to bed.
Next year your stocking will be full.
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