I finally feel like I did something for myself. I took the opportunity to do something spontaneous. I feel wild, I feel like myself, I feel calm.
I took an Ativan an hour before we arrived at the airport and I was perfectly fine. It felt refreshing to know that I did not need Robert to travel. I can rely upon myself. I am stronger and I did not even realize it until I walked onto the plane and all the decisions were my own. Past memories flooded my brain. Past panic attacks on planes, on trips, all seem like a thing of the past. I feel strong! I feel empowered, I feel like I have a purpose.
I am here in Miami and I am ready to take it on.
I just sat outside, breathed in the salty air and realized that i'm going to be okay. All I need is me. I'm happy that I am reconnecting with myself. I feel like I can finally breath.
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