Why is he buying milk?

He is living with the girl now. How do I internalize that on a rational level? How can I not hate him for playing house with a little Indian lady? How did my life get so messed up? Why is it that everyone around me is happy? Has children? Has someone whose loves them? Why is this happening to me? What did I ever do to deserve this?

Why is he happy and does not know what loneliness is? Why do I feel like no will ever love me? Why is he buying milk?

What the fuck am I doing??? Where is life headed. Why is he so fucking happy. Why does he deserve that????