A silent scream

My car got bashed in today. I was driving. It was very scary. I wanted my person to talk to. I lost it at work. Cried in the bathroom. My boss was a dick. Did the whole why can't you bring your car in on your free time. 

I spent the night with my ex's friends. All I wanted to do tonight was crawl into a little ball. My car, I care about nothing  But not having my person here killed me. I needed him so much and he was not here.

I am so tired if being unhappy. I want to be happy now. I am ready. I need to smile. I need to smile I need to just be me without all my fucked up thoughts. 

I spent the night wanting to scream silently until I burst. I can only take so much.