Message received. Loud and clear!

Last night, I went on a first date with a guy that I have known for months. We walked the cemetery in middle of a snow storm. It was wirlwind of a night. The conversation flowed. We kissed for awhile under the shelter of some random souls mosaleum. 

We left and then everything in my life has come to a sudden hault. I lost control of my car and hit a parked car. I was probably driving too fast for such a snowy night. It is my fault. 

Everything worked out in the end. Meaning that the person's car that I hit actually came outside. We were able to exchange information. No one was hurt. My car is badly damaged. Hers was not that bad. 

I have never been responsible for an accident. Accidents always happened to me. It is an uneasy feeling when you know you are at fault. I know it is an accident. You could have taken 15 other streets to get home. Fate was watching you last night and sending you a message. Fate also intervined and made sure that everything happened in the most positive way. 

I just realized. That I am moving too fast. I am not standing still long enough to live my own life. I am always moving forward or looking back and am never in the moment. I need to just stand still for a moment and breath. 

Things are changing in my life. External things. But I really need to start changing myself from the inside out. I need to stop all negative thoughts and behaviours. 

Message received. Loud and crystal clear.