Flip the switch

So I'm wondering when I am going to be able to flip the switch on my own life. When I finally choose to realize that everything is in my control and it is up to me to look at everything with a clear, positive perspective. 

It has been over two weeks that I have an intense relationship with my couch and my Apple TV. I watch mind numbing TV for hours on end. My mood is completely negative and dark. I am fed up and I wonder what I ever did to deserve this life. 

Boys come and go. Even a delicious kiss cannot assure you that he will stick around. My ego and my confidence are taking a beating. 

I feel surrounded by my ex. He is envading my personal space. His presence is engulfing. I feel like I need to hide away in case I run into him. 

Will I see the light today, tomorrow or the next? It is really up to me to flip the switch.