In a funk

I'm just in a strange mood. My thoughts are all over the place. I am thinking too much about him. He is on my mind. 

I don't know if I am coming or going. I don't really know what I am doing right now. I'm not sure I am making any if the right choices right now. Am I really having fun? Whom am I doing all of this for. 

People encourage me. Clap me on the back but can I really do the same back to me. 

This is not me. Is it a new me? One that is experiencing her youth at the ripe age of 34. 

I'm just in a funk.