Owe it all to him!

HI have a new job now that I love. Adore actually. It's all about writing which brings me back to an essay in university I wrote for a fem class I took with my ex. I wrote about the colour purple. He helped me write that paper. He taught me how to write. I can not stop dreaming about him lately. There are all these scenarios that keep on taking place. I want these thoughts to stop. I'm a writer. He helped shape me. I want it to stop. I'm just joting down thoughts. I want them to stop.  

Why cause I bear no significance in his life. I feel what I feel when I feel it. 

I know that he never ever has that moment where a memory of us catches  him off guard. 

 

Really do I owe it all to him?