Can't always get what you want

Funny how you get one thing but you can only think about the other thing you want. 

You are given an opportunity. Almost like it is dangled in front of you but don't take it. You had an opening but then the door closed. Was it meant to be so that your heart was preserved? 

Funny cause I went after something, a bit hard core cause I wanted it.  He reacted with interest but now has shut down. Again probably for the best cause really he probably would have hurt me. 

Right now I'm just annoyed. I'm not rejected. I realize that he's an asshole that I wanted. He was playing a game and reacted like a baby when I was not available. 

I asked him to hang and his cold response was I'm busy both days. Mad cause I did not drop everything the week prior when he summoned me. 

Funny. I think my ego wanted him to prove a point that I could get him. And I guess I sorta did but not really. 

Ahh well time to let the fantasy go and move on. It was nice while it lasted. 

I know I'm done going after a lost cause.