Laugh all you want.

Someone is laughing so hard right now at my expense. Honestly I just want to give up. A person can only take so much rejection before character building takes a wrong turn. 

There is something flawed in me. Something that everyone sees and does not want to be apart of. 

I've been on a high for a while now. I thought things would change. I felt happy. I felt like things were about to change cause I changed. I was so wrong. Everything is against me. Life is what....seriously giving what I need not I want. What? I need to feel like shit all the time? I need to face constant rejections? I need to finally feel normal only to realize it's a facade. I need to turn that frown upside down. 

 I'm so tired of trying. I'm so tired of the world laughing at my expense. I want to stop trying. There is really no point. I can not do this anymore. I want to just be all alone. I no longer want anything more for me. I tried and I am just not strong enough. I give up. Laugh at me. Please. You won. World. Just laugh.