I'm not gonna lie, I think I am still In shock but I'm okay. It hurts on so many levels that I can not even begin to explain but somehow I see that the man he has become, the coward he has developed into is my gain.
The simple statement that my ex has a wife puts my mind into a full blown melt down. The idea that someone supersedes me. That they are the one that got everything I ever wanted from him. That he is a hypocrite. That I am alone while he has a wife. I'm being punished for some sin I can not remember commiting.
I know I make no sense. I'm just a girl in utter pain but I'm also a girl who had to use all this pain to make something out of myself. This soap opera life that is mine needs to be a thing of the past. I need a clean slate. I need to be free of the bondage that has been chocking me. I need to finally breath.
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