A mask revealed.

I wonder if 2014 has been a mask I have been wearing for the last 23 days. I said goodbye to a crappy year and opened my mind to the possibility of a new life, a new me. 

The mask is starting to melt and the momentum is starting slow down. I feel the weight of my mind pressing down upon me. 

I want so much for this year. I want a new job.  Actually a career. Something I can emmerce myself in. I want to get out and live life and not spend it in front of a TV. I want to meet someone that I connect with and that I can have hours of fun with. I just want to laugh this year and not think. I want to enjoy being me and my life and everything I have. There is so much that is wrong but so much is right. I have become someone different even if I do not realize it yet. 

I have gone on so many dates. Made so many mistakes. Made so many connections. Had do much stupid fun with strangers. I got out of my box. I become someone I do not recognise but am proud of all the same. 

I learned to not care. To not take thing so personally. Everyone has issues. Does not mean it is me. I learn to take the upper hand. I learned that I can want someone. I learned that I can actually connected with men on different levels. I learnt what I do not want. I learnt that what I want matters. What I want is key. 

I learnt that my mask night be melting but what is revealed will be magnificent.